the worse of the worse

assalamualaikum. hi. dh lama tak update blog ni. last update pon masa bulan 2 or 3 haritu if tak silap. masa aku praktikal dulu. ok now bulan sept, aku dh mula sem baru di minggu kedua. well, 4 months to go before i end my study. actually right now i'm having a very tough and hard time. u had no idea what ive been goin through and what i have felt. nevertheless, let me tell u my feelings. i am soooo depressed, stress, helpless, hopeless, anxious, and agitated right now. u know, i'd made a very wrong decision and i receive the consequences now. i feel so regret right now. they say it is not good to think about what had happens. anyway i can't help myself from feeling that way. i am blaming myself right now. i donno since when i've been this fool. i always made a rush decision, and now i pay the price. im suffering inside. and i've met a dead ends. i donno how to solve my problems. (im not telling here the reasons, just what i feel).

return back to the class after practical for one sems, its quite hard. i couldnt focus much. i lost track. im feeling depressed. somehow i missed my practical life. it was actually all better than being here studying right now.

anyway this is my last sems here, i wish i can get as many sweet memories as i can. but seeing the situation now, it may sounds impossible. *sigh

new leaf

assalamualaikum.

lama sudah x update blog ni..kangen bangat tuk menulis tp apakan daya, masa tidak mengizinkan..

my life so far okay, kot? school okay. anak murid form 2 even nakal pon tp still ikut ckp. but the problem adalah pd student form 4. they dont quite attracted in my teaching. i should do something. i need to grab their attention.

i must try harder. this time no more regret !

yeahhhhh ;)

mengimbau kenangan dulu

assalamualaikum. dah berapa lama dh aku tak update blog nih..well..rasa cam tak perlu je update pun...sape je yg baca,,hohoho..

tp kali ni cam rajin plak nk update..wee...ok..now i'm 22.. 22 sounds really old to me..dh layak kawen da..wakaka..ok smlm besday aku..and 4th of Ramadhan.. and smlm gak unfortunate thing happen to me.. ACCIDENT!!! ptg smlm ak and adik aku nk keluar p pekan dgn moto..tgh sedap sembang atas moto ada satu kereta kembara ni bwak slow jer.. adik aku nk potong ar..rupanya kereta tu nk masuk simpang..apa lg mto kitorg pun collide dgn kereta tu..melambung ar aku dgn adik aku..dlm kesakitan aku pun bingkas bangun n tgok adik aku..alhamdulillah tak teruk mana..nasib baik both motor and kereta dlm kelajuan yg slow..ak and adik aku dibawak oleh org yg bwak kereta tu ke hospital..adik aku kena cucuk kt lengan dia..aku alhamdulillah takda apa2..just some bruises and scratches..moto lak pecah side mirror jek..tp kesian adik aku laa, bruises kt lengan dia cm teruk gak.. T.T..ok end of story

next story..regarding the topic..ni cita masa aku darjah 2..DARJAH DUA ok..masa tu aku sgtlah kiut, comel kuasa 10..hahaksss..aku ada crush dgn someone ni..ok bygkn darjah 2..errr actually tak berapa ingat darjah 2 or 1..tp lbh kurang time tu laa..ok bygkn time ni aku dh leh suka kat someone..gedikss x? HAHA..and terror x?time ni dh ade perasaan syok kt someone..korang pernah?? 
tp the prob is aku sgt lah pemalu..pemalu kuasa 10..aku tak pernah cakap ng budak lelaki..even semua bdk laki dlm kelas aku aku tak pernah ckp..tp aku masih ingat sampai sekarang sorang budak laki ni..aku suka dia time tu..nama dia Asyraf..rambut dia kerinting-kerinting sikit.. and dia agak nakal dlm kelas.. satu hr cikgu arahkan ktorg satu kelas utk tukar tempat duduk..dh takleh duduk sebelah-sebelah dgn kwn perempuan..kena yg gurl dok sbelah lelaki..sbbnya kelas aku ni bising sgt..klu dok sebelah boy kononnya tak bising laa..sb takde cerita kan..takde gossip..so aku pun ditakdirkan duduk sebelah asyraf..tp aku tak pernah sembang dgn dia..HAHA!! time ada sukaneka.. aku satu rumah dgn asyraf..kami masuk pertandingan tiup belon and pecahkan dgn tangan.. bila tiba turn aku..ohh aku tak reti tiup belon!! lalu cikgu pun suruh asyraf mai tlg tiup belon kt aku..haha..ak tak ingat menang ke tak tp aku dapat bawak balik tupperware hadiah masuk permainan ni..hihi..

aku pernah nampak dia kat taman permainan luar waktu sekolah..and aku rasa cam taw rumah dia kt mana..tak ingat cmna aku leh taw..hm tu je nk ckp.. .kt mana laa dia sekarang..and 1999 was da last time i saw him..masa form 3 aku dah tukar sekolah..from kelantan to kedah..

ok lah! selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa ye!! :)

finally

finally, i gain somethings that i wanna damn much and now i loss something else.. but its sokay,  i don need someone who were sooo annoying and perasan. pergi mampus lahhh